lessons from the bathroom cabinet
this week, i babysat my cutest cousins in the WORLD while their parents went on a company vacation to mexico. it was so much fun! they have the sweetest labradoodle (u already KNOW storie was "oof"-ing all over the place) and they are just the cutest girls. as i went through the week cooking and cleaning for them, i became familiar with the cupboards and drawers of their home. where the spatula went, where the extra paper towels were, and where to get q-tips. as i was searching for the q-tips, i opened a cabinet in my aunt's bathroom. i was SO impressed at a) how organized it was and b) how many personal hygiene products there were! so many yummy lotions, salt scrubs, varying brands of toothpaste, etc. "wow", i thought to myself, "i am a potato and my aunt is a queen. she is so tidy and CLEAN!" i found the q-tips, closed the bathroom cabinet, and didn't think much more of the situation until later that day.
in the afternoon, my thoughts went back to the bathroom cabinet. i had a sort of "a-ha!" moment. when i saw the contents of the cabinet, with all the varying cleansing products, i didn't think, "my aunt must be a dirty person to need all of this stuff". i thought, "wow, my aunt is so clean!"
i immediately recognized the significance of this thought process and realized that i need to apply this analogy to areas of my own life.
i think that something a lot of people struggle with is anxiety and/or depression. myself included! for me, it was scary to admit that it was something that i struggled with. a verbal self-diagnosis somehow made it more real and made me feel more vulnerable. i was hesitant to talk about it with others, consider medication, or go to counseling. "i'm a happy person", i would tell myself, "and my life is good. my husband rocks, my daughter is wonderful. i can power through. i can be bigger than this. i can beat it." long story short, i realized that my anxiety WAS something that i would benefit from by seeking assistance outside of myself. i found an awesome therapist and went to my OBGYN for some medication.
if you are like me and struggle with anxiety, or any other mental illness, i hope you know that asking for help is okay. having other resources to help you feel like your best self doesn't make you a weak person, just like my aunt having lots of toiletries doesn't make her a dirty person. it will make you a stronger person, just like all those lotions made her a clean person! we are all just trying our best, and there ain't nothing wrong with having a few bath bombs or anxiety-reducing techniques to help you out along the way.